I'm PREGNANT!!!!! WOW! I still can't believe it!
I can't say we were exactly trying to get pregnant right now. Dave and I just opened a coffee shop 2 months ago and I've been working 15/16 hour days. I guess you could say that we weren't exactly not trying either. I think if left up to our own planning skills we would surely have waited another year... or longer...BUT, it seems this tiny life had a plan of it's own. CHRISTMAS!!!! Seriously! C'mon Kid! You're gonna have to share your birthday with the biggest Birthday spotlight stealer of all time! Jesus! Conceived on Easter and born on Christmas. I might have a mini disciple on my hands! Uh-OH! ;>
THAT BEING SAID...
WE ARE SO HAPPY! SO EXCITED! I don't care what day of the year my water breaks! "Mom, could you pass the Yule Log... and a roll of Brawny! My water just broke!!! EEEEK! Just the thought of things like water gushing from my nether regions and things I've heard about like "mucus plugs" makes me squirm. It hasn't really sank in yet that I will be feeding something from my boobs. I'm really more accustomed to plate art and garnishing when I feed others. This whole thing is going to be the ultimate challenge of my entire life. I wasn't thinking about babies or getting pregnant at all. I've just been too crazy with running a business. I love children and have always thought I would have them someday, but with every year that passed I just thought I could wait a while longer... now I'm 35. I'm considered high risk! I don't feel high risk. I feel alive! I felt instantly protective of this mini being growing inside me from the second I found out. I want to eat healthy and A LOT!!!! I've been a vegetarian for many years now and I haven't craved meat at all other than an occasional pang for crispy bacon. I admit I used to LOVE bacon. Thank SOY for Facon! I love that stuff! I am concerned with everything I eat now. I just want everything I ingest to have a nutritional benefit. Should I eat meat while I'm pregnant? I have been asking myself that. Am I truly missing out on some B vitamins and proteins that I can't easily get from other vegetarian sources??? My good friend Amanda, a long time vegetarian, just had a son recently. She gave me this advice: if you are craving meat you should eat it. If it disgusts you then you shouldn't. I think she's right. I eat a lot of nuts and beans and other things that can fulfill my protein needs. I'm not so worried. I ate some of my boyfriend's Italian sub tonight at dinner. It was ok. it didn't make me wretch or anything but I certainly have no desire to try that again. EVER! I'm going to read up on vegetarian pregnancy and ask my other good friend Shaun what she has to say on the matter. She has been a vegetarian for over half her life and didn't eat any meat during either of her pregnancies. Her children are super healthy and super smart. I think if I do have a hankering for meat, I'll buy some free range organic turkey and go that route rather than just trying to chow into a nasty Italian sub from the local pizzeria. THAT was a mistake!!! I'd love to hear your opinions on a vegetarian pregnancy and also raising a vegetarian child.
I have a lot to learn, a lot to accept, a lot to teach and a ton to love. I can honestly say I've never fallen so hard and so fast in love before which is crazy since he/she is just a miniature weird looking sesame seed with arm "buds" right now.
It's a pretty amazing feeling to know that I am now two.
Oh BABY,
Mary and Mary Junior (Due Christmas 2010)
