Monday, June 21, 2010

BAD VEGETARIAN!


WELL,

I never thought I be writing this:
I have been craving and eating fast food! BAD STUFF! Like Cheese Burgers and total crap food like McDonalds or Wendy's Cheese Biscuits! WHY BABY WHY are you doing this to your mother.
I haven't wanted or cared about eating meat in a very long time. In fact meat has never been my favorite of the food groups even before I knew what a vegetarian was. Since about month 2 of this pregnancy though, I have wanted to eat strange things like plain cheese burgers! I caved too! I wanted a cheese burger so bad for so many days in a row that I went and ordered one... then a week later I ordered another one. I loved every bite of it too. Thankfully I think I'm cured now after the second one. I haven't wanted or thought about cheese burgers or meat since. I don't want to eat meat. Especially not nasty ol' fast food meat. I know where it comes from. It goes against everything I believe in to support that industry. I became weak and gave in to my cravings and I feel like a jerk. I really had intentions of only eating free range organic meats if I had a craving now I've blown it!
Back to the start again. It's hard to clean up your life and live and eat healthy. I don't smoke, never have, that is easy. I miss having a mixed drink or a cold beer every now and then now that I'm preggo, but I never thought I'd have a new vice to all of a sudden battle! MEAT! NO WAY! Stay outta my psyche.

I'm gonna try extra hard from here on out to not give in to immediate hunger like that again. Errrrr, I'm still mad at myself!